I woke up in a bad mood on Monday and it's persisted -- which is bad because Nate's family is here and I kind of need to be sociable and happy. Or, at least not mean.
This feels a lot like junior year, when I spent a lot of time in bed or at Sarah and Jenny's house, avoiding being by myself, avoiding school, avoiding work. That doesn't bode well. Especially because I don't really have friends here. I'm cordial with my co-workers and we have a couple of friends that we hang out with as a couple, but I don't really have any friends here to hang out with on a one to one basis. Or even a group of girls to have happy hour with. It's frustrating being so far from friends, especially when I don't really like the phone -- it makes me feel awkward and I often don't know what to talk about. I'm so much better with chat and/or email. I have tried Skype, and that was fun, but it's kind of like the phone in that it needs constant attention to keep a conversation going and feels awkward when you try to talk at the same time or the conversation lulls.
Maybe I just need to get over feeling awkward. Thank you, moderate social anxiety. Thanks a lot.
I'm just lonely and caught up in how nice it was hanging out with friends last weekend. I sound super duper pathetic, don't I? I should stop that.
At least I have the kitty.
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